How to define my identity? Who am I? There are actually 2 answers. One is how I view myself. The second is how the world describes me. And I just view myself as a mundane,

Agency, Advocacy, and Aggression The modern world rewards self-advocacy, polite aggression and proactiveness, emotional detachment from failure, and direct, personalized contacting. Mathematically, as long as you are respectful and polite. If you stand up for

I am thinking about applying for masters in CS in the US. It's already February. I thought about applying before but my mind was dominated by stress and the anxiety of failing classes. I applied

Throwing Social Media into My Trashbox I fundamentally dislike the model where social media "push" something to me. If I subscribe to a channel, I feel an obligation to check it once in a while.

I have divorced computer science for almost 2 years since some time in 2024. When will we make up again? I don't know.

1 Aesthetics matter the most. 2 In the end everything disappears. And we are left with romantic fatalism. 3 We do not need cynicism and resentment. We need melancholy and tragedy. 4 Misfitting is a

Fatalism and Choice The greatest problem in American Hollywood pop culture is that the hero possesses a rare skill, extremely talented, or "chosen" to save the world. In real life, you are not Harry Potter

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The biggest killer for motivation isn't laziness. In fact, if you have motivation, difficult tasks won't stop you. The biggest killer for motivation and drive is illusion. When I mean by illusion, I mean a

I began running in the summer of 2019. My 1 km time was 3:50, then it improved to 3:27 by the fall of 2019. I was still not the fastest one in class in 1000,